Poems of Love - Deep-ShallowThoughts - Poems of Prayers
Poems of Love - Deep-ShallowThoughts - Poems of Prayers
I have things that come Outta My Mind that I have to give a title to. Some of these aren’t really poems, just not sure what else to call them, most are my Deep-ShallowThoughts that I’m trying to categorize, and find a place for them to fit. I have an online friend, Joseph Massey who has a Substack page you can find here:
Now, Joseph, he’s a real poet.
What I do is I close my eyes and, I’m not sure how to even describe it. It’s really how all my writing happens. I’ll give it a try and maybe it’ll make sense to you, maybe not.
I close my eyes and get into what I call the flow. It’s like a stream of energy, creative energy that I attach to. What that is for me is, it’s like watching a movie. I see a movie in my minds eye and just try and write down what I see. My eyes aren’t always closed when I write, most of the time they’re open but they don’t see what’s actually in front of them, but the movie. This is harder to explain than I thought it would be.
Sometimes the movie goes so fast that I can barely keep up. I’m a really good typist, thanks to Mrs. Trailer from my high school typing class (more on her in another article). Yes, the old-school type of typing on real, old-school electric typewriters with ribbons that we only see now in movies and old black-and-white TV shows from a different era, not the computer keyboards of today.
Sometimes what I see are words but most of the time I see an actual movie, and I just do the best job I can trying to keep up. When I’m in the flow, I don’t want to stop and can write for hours, staying up until 6 or 7am. Like I’ve done tonight. I can’t turn the movie off, well I can, but I’ll miss something if I do and I may not be able to recapture it, at least that’s my fear. If only I could turn on a recorder in my head and hit pause and start up again where I left off. I often can pick up, sort of kind of, when I stop, but it’s usually slightly different. So I’ll often make weird notes of things, bread crumbs so to speak, to help me find my place again.
When I’m in the flow, often the movie will turn itself on during the day, all on its own. Man, that’s the hardest to deal with, as friends and family have never understood that. There are times all I want to do is write. Not talk to anyone, just be in the flow in my own little world. Sometimes there will be more than one movie running at the same time and I go back and forth between all of them. I have 5 books on Amazon Kindle that were written in this way, at the same time. I’ll share them with you another time, (another story) since I want to update the books and share why I wrote, said some things, and didn’t say some things in them I’m not happy with now. I’ll say this about the books, they are on Being a Man; Prostate Cancer-Intimacy and Sex; and, Journaling to Success.
Here’s the thing that’s also kind of weird, when I’m in the flow or outside the flow. I can be watching TV, doesn’t matter what it is, it could be a news show, a movie, an old western, doesn’t matter. Sometimes when reading an article, book, or magazine, one word will kick me into the flow, the same thing happens with music, even music with no lyrics like jazz, and words will appear out of nowhere. And that one word, just one random word, that would mean absolutely nothing to anyone else opens the door to the flow, the movie, that just takes off. Maybe I’ll write more about this as time goes on, as there are a lot more details to this and that’s not what this article is about.
I have so much on my plate right now, so many things I really don’t or wish I didn’t have to deal with, but that’s life. I hope this little bit of insight into my creative process makes sense, I have no idea. If it does great, if not, oh well. It makes sense to me but I know I’m kind of weird in a good way if that makes sense.
So this is how my Poems of Love - Deep-ShallowThoughts - Poems of Prayers and pretty much everything I write are born and created.
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Poems of Love - Deep-ShallowThoughts - Poems of Prayers
Poems of Love
Legs
The car door opened with that new car sound,
Smooth, almost silent, with little sound at all.
I saw one, then two, legs swing out that I thought I knew.
Only this time those legs didn’t belong to you.
Now… This could be a problem… Or not…
Story
What story do I tell to get you to understand
How far back do I go, how far ahead can I try
Or is there a story you have to tell… Tell me…
Speaking Love
He didn’t say it a lot growing up… I just knew it was there
But when the boys came along something changed
I heard love more than in all the years before… He learned…
Tell Me
I don’t need you, but I want to know you.
So I say hi and I wait, should I?
Let me know and I’ll go.
Tell me to stay and I will.
Phone
If you don’t have my number,
Should I wait for the phone to ring?
Wait… It’s ringing… It can’t be you… Can it…
Flow
I was in the flow of expressing and sharing with you. It was that space where I could write for an hour or two, and if you ask me 5 minutes after I finished, what I wrote, I wouldn't be able to tell you… I was so lost in the flow.
Smile
I hope your day is starting out with a smile, just as my day is ending with a smile for you. As I lay in bed, I was thinking of you. May Yeshua guide you from your heart in seeing the beauty He will place in front of you that is there, especially for you to experience this day.
Ice Melting
Sometimes I just want to say, what are you waiting for? I’m doing all I can… well at least I tell myself that and hope that it’s true. So I sit here waiting for you like watching ice melt in a glass. Will you ever take my hand… and say… you know… what you say…
Broken
Why am I touched? This old thing. It’s been tossed about, beaten up, used, and abused, a tattered shell of what was grand majesty. Many have seen it, steeped over it, left it to die alone apparently broken.
As you hold it in your heart a tear drops and something is revealed. More tears flow. You gasp, oh my God. For the hands of your heart now hold what you have searched a lifetime for. You have found it. Your tears revealed it. It was never broken.
My Love
As always I send my love and care to you and all those whose eyes may fall upon these words to have a safe God-filled day. May love and abundance be upon you.
Hidden
You don’t need a Johnny Speed secret decoder ring to unlock the mystery.
Our Creator engineered you with one and it beats the combination to love.
Once unlocked the message stands boldly no longer hidden.
Do you hear it? Read the code again, now you get it.
The only question becomes do you have the courage to take the treasure?
It’s for you, it’s always been only for you. You know this is true.
It’s been your dream of long. Now, what will you do? It’s up to you.
Some treasures are so rare. The most valuable are hidden in plain sight.
Overlooked by most.
A pure heart will see beyond the dazzling glitter.
That is only meant to distract.
There amongst the finest rewards known to man. There it sits.
Its plainness makes it stand out, begging you, calling out, yes, a thousand times yes. You have found me.
Do you have the courage of love to make it yours?
Do you? How will I know? Show me…
Fear
What are you afraid of…
Is it I may not be here long…
How long is enough for love…
What are you afraid of…
Is it the distance between us…
How close or far is enough for love…
What are you afraid of…
Is it the hidden passions of our hearts…
How passionate is enough for love…
Tell me before our time runs out…
Tell me without hesitating to speak…
Tell me quickly without fear of heart…
Tell me for I will never reject your love…
No Doubt
Far, far away I tried to return…
Of course, I would make it…
There was never any doubt…
But you did… Why…
To Love Again
Oh, Adonai, I sit alone with so much and so little…
So full it spills but nowhere to pour…
So much that’s empty but none to fill it…
I am a sinner and I am saved by Your gift of grace Yeshua…
Saved to love again…
Lifetime of Love
I’ve lost so much Adonai…
You’ve allowed me to find more…
Your love has grown my love…
To give and make more…
Our 1 hour together is like 4
Our 1 day together is like 5
Our 1 week together is like 6
Our 1 month together is like 8
Our 1 year together is like 5
Our 1 love is like a lifetime…
Thank You, Yeshua for saving Me to give to another…
Real
It’s really not about anyone…
You don’t exist…
Only in my mind do we dance together…
Only in my mind is your hand in mine…
My heart still feels even if it’s not real…
Beauty
Spending time in my thoughts…
Sharing them but not asked…
Thoughts can be so beautiful…
If we let them…
More beauty…
Please…
Silence
Sitting in silence thinking of you…
Sitting in silence knowing God will pull me through…
Sitting in silence the world seems new…
Sitting in silence if only you knew…
Well
Uh-Oh…
No words…
No sighting…
It’s been days…
Nothing’s changed…
Everything is changing…
Landing
Deeper I’ve grown, I wasn’t trying…
Deeper on my own, I’ve grown…
When will I land, on my own?…
Trying
I keep trying I’ll never stop…
I don’t know but wish I did…
The flow keeps me going until the end…
Secretly I dream I know…
Could it be wishful thinking…
Maybe so…
Do You Know
Do we pick…
Or are we picked…
Are we the picker…
Or the pickee…
Which way works best…
Should it matter…
It does it seems…
Do you know…
The Moon
The roar of the ocean under the stars…
Waves crashing the shore…
Do I see the moon…
No… it’s just your smile…
On The Road
Sun in my eyes…
Peddle to the metal…
Driving on old 45…
Hitting over 105…
Everything was fine…
Until I thought about you…
The Wall
Don’t think I’m afraid or not aware…
I see more than you think…
I Hear more than I share…
Now, will I drop the wall…
Maybe… can I trust you…
Maybe… can I trust me with you…
Moon Love
If we look up at a full moon at the exact same moment…
Across the world from each other…
Does that mean we’re in love…
She's not gonna know… She's gonna know…
But how will she know… She's gonna know…
How will she know… She's gonna know…
Love always knows… Always…
Doing
I wonder what you’re doing…
When you see what I’m doing…
How does it make you feel - joy, happy, sad…
Or neutral…
Neutral would be worst…
Don’t be neutral…
I wouldn’t know, I’m not there…
I’m here, a million miles away…
Figuratively…
By your side would literally be ideal…
Hmm
I know, I know, you think that’s weird.
What if I said maybe you’re right?
Where does that leave us? Yes?
Crazy Love
We don’t fight because I don’t.
I don’t because, well… You know.
It’s that crazy love thing. Well, Okay.
My Heart
What’s the secret code…
To enter my heart, you need it…
Your decoder ring, you still have it… Right…
Smileability
I have to say you make me smile…
Easy though… While I drop my wall…
Your smileability is disarming…
How grand… How different…
The Leaf
One leaf, then two, not a minute too soon.
You laughed, then stopped, for one leaf, not two.
I Knew
Laughing because you know.
I didn’t even ask why you know.
I just knew, so we laughed.
Night
All night… It’s been too long.
All night… it’s the rain.
All night… You can breathe again.
Love Dance
Do I know love, of course… I know you.
I see it in your smile as you read this.
I feel it as the words dance in your mind.
I reach out and touch your heart, do you know love?
Close your eyes, feel it… love dances with you.
We both dance for love.
Thank You, Adonai for love.
Looking
You never told me where I’d find her Yeshua.
I looked for her in mountains, over oceans, in the jungles, and forests,
Where I was once even afraid to go.
But I went without fear knowing You, will guide me to the cool sweet stream that will quench my thirst until I can drink no more and thirst never again.
Deep-ShallowThoughts
Fatherhood
When a Man becomes a Father his life changes, he becomes a Dad…
His heart expands, his mission becomes clear…
Tomorrow becomes even more important…
When a male becomes a father he has a child…
He hasn’t learned yet to be a Man/Dad but he can…
Sometimes it may take months or years, sometimes…
It takes the child to teach him to be a Father…
A Father’s Hands
I remember his hands… They were strong, rough…
They fixed things… Cars, Bikes, Toys, and Feelings…
Yes, sometimes really deep scary feelings…
Purpose
A man without a purpose becomes lost…
Purpose doesn’t make the man…
The man makes the purpose…
If it’s lost he must find another…
If he’s aware, it will be there… Find it…
Whispering
So I had to enter. I had to find out what was at the end of the alley…
Then it was too late, I was trapped, with nowhere to run, nothing to return to…
I was on my own. And then you appeared… And then you appeared…
I heard the sound of my own voice deep inside my mind, whispering…
Eyes
These eyes that look out see 35…
These eyes that look in add 30 more…
Growing
It’s so good to grow…
Even better is knowing you’re growing…
The Darkness of Light
Before the candle was lit it knew darkness…
Darkness gives itself to the light…
For it is drawn to what it has never known…
Its entire purpose is to experience light… Just once, even for a moment…
That moment becomes a lifetime for the darkness…
A lifetime of light from a moment…
The Rock
Is it safer to push the boulder up the hill…
Or trying to catch it coming down…
Time
Opened up the box, didn’t know what was inside…
I was so surprised to find… time… time inside…
What was it doing there, so many questions…
How long, who else knows, should I hide it…
Time trapped in the box, who would have ever thought…
How do you hide time… Why…
Men
I was talking with a new friend tonight…
We shared a bit about how God shows up…
In small but powerful ways if only we pay attention…
I shared some things with him…
On Men who I learn from and admire…
He was one of them, one of those Men…
I share with you what I’ve learned…
I watch to learn from certain kinds of Men…
Men who stand tall and buck the trends…
Who speak the truth with grace of force…
That leaves no doubt of their sincerity…
And mission direction…
Add in a bit of humor…
Inspiring, and motivating…
I know and learn from Men like that…
Lessons
There are too many times what we tell others…
We are truly telling ourselves…
If only we didn’t require so many repeat lessons…
Happy
Now, this is what I call happy…
Singing with a weak voice…
Dancing on tired legs…
Playing hard and fast…
Doing it again tomorrow…
The Wall
Stuff on the wall doesn’t really tell who we are…
It tells a bit about where we’ve been…
Not so much how we got there…
It’s nice and all, but doesn’t really mean much…
Really… That may be a question…
The Chill
I feel the chill… The heater’s on… Where’s the heat…
Chill won’t leave… Legs, Arms, wherever I think…
There it goes… Shiver… Chill has a mind of its own…
Rites of Passage
When I was a boy you weren’t a Man because you said you were…
You became a Man through rites of passage…
When you held your 1st real job, married your girl, had your 1st child…
Provided for and protected your family…
Was the head of your household…
I am a Man. I miss those Men.
Names
I like one-letter names…
Sometimes they can fool you though…
G K B
But not when I’m driving…
Alone at night on I-75…
In the rain… At 138 MPH…
Oopsy…
Laugh
Yes, it’s that time…
Drop all the fun…
Don’t pretend. Laugh anyway…
Question
I like writing…
Is that a crime…
Or only if it makes sense to me…
That may have been a question…
Maybe two… three... I forget.
Right
I find it Witty, Charming, and Clever…
I am right… Right… Oh just admit it…
The Bone
Ever wonder why a dog digs a hole even if he doesn’t have a bone?
Naw… Me either.
Birds
How many times do I have to answer this…
Yes, of course, I know why birds sing…
They do it just for me…
But I’ll share them with you if you don’t tell… Deal…
StarWind
Around the world in under 4 hours…
That’s how fast I travel the universe…
When I ride on the wind of a star…
Perfect Memory
Tires rumbling over the road…
The early hum of the morning…
Dad having his coffee in the blue cup he likes so well… Him only… No one else…
Mom making breakfast… Radio on “The Sunny Side of the Street”…
A day that starts off perfect… Ends…
As perfect as it started…
The Skate
I found a skate that didn’t fit…
The old school roller derby kind…
I watched it and wondered what secrets it held…
Gold
Not my path you said…
But it’s the only way to the pot of gold…
Okay… Leprechaun…
Awake
Why am I still awake?
No… Don’t answer…
Let me surprise myself…
Stars
Stars shine, the night, at last, the moon passed full…
Today
Maybe today is the day…
Yesterday wasn’t…
Tomorrow’s gone…
Yes...Todays. Today…
Friends
When I was on the left I always had friends who had opposite views.
Now that I’m on the right I don’t have any left friends who were like me.
The Conservative in You
I reached out to my extended family, only one said hi. The rest ignored my cry.
They didn’t speak it but silently said, the conservative in you is not welcome here, you might as well be dead.
Friends I’ve known for years and years, I saw that some were no longer here.
As I wiped away tears, I said to some still in frame, hey remember when…
But only silence came back, then a solid wail, you’re a conservative, you can go to hell.
But wait just a minute I spoke out. My love is real, it never changed.
My politics evolved but my values stayed the same.
And our love for God surpasses all political views.
It didn’t matter, their message stayed true, we don’t want anything to do with the conservative you.
Bring back the old, the one we knew, we just don’t like this conservative you.
What hurt the most is my Christian crew, who say they love the Lord but hate my conservative view.
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You have to understand, most of these people are not ready to be unplugged. And many of them are so inured, so hopelessly dependent on the system that they will fight to protect it. (The Matrix)
This is where we are right now in our country and the world. It is the purpose of the New World Order that is being implemented around us and in front of us every day, while we work, and play.
That moment when you wake up from all the lies, the indoctrination, the programming you’ve been taught and bought into, then and only then will you see the world as it truly is and be able to live as Free Men and Women do.
The only way out is… you have to want to get out. There is no other way.
Poems of Prayer
Sometime
Do you ever get scared, I do… Sometime.
Do you ever get scared?
I screamed… but it’s still there.
What does it feel like?
When you’re scared and alone.
And all those you call on don’t answer your phone.
But you really didn’t call them, because you can’t.
You hide your pain so well.
You’ve learned how to master that.
So no one knows.
Just how scared you are.
You put a smile on your face, that’s the mask you carry.
You keep trying and trying to turn it around.
But no one believes… There’s no faith in you.
You’re on your own, but that's not true.
You know the One who believes in you.
You’re not a victim, can’t even process that.
Sometimes you get scared… But you fight through that.
This is what it looks like… scared and alone.
There’s only one place to turn far from home.
There is One who will always answer your phone.
Did you ever get scared? Who did you call?
Did you ever get scared? And no one knows?
You scream, but it won’t leave you alone.
Just don’t do it, leaves you bare.
There’s only One, we can always trust.
There’s only One, who is always there.
Do you ever get scared, I do… Sometime.
Thank you Father for being there and hearing my cry.
Taking me through my pain that I try to hide.
I’m still scared, but I will trust in You.
Father God, I know Your love will see me through.
Do you ever get scared, I do… Sometime.
We do… Sometime.
But there is One who will always be by our side.
Surrender to the Good Lord and He will set us free.
Walking
When we walk with the Lord Our God, we walk with protection against those who attack, ridicule, or persecute us. The strength of love we have for You Father threatens and weakens those who do not know You. We pray that one day they will know the depth of Your love. In Yeshua’s name, Amen, thank You, Lord.
Love
Adonai, watch over my friends as they start their day filled with the love of Yeshua in their hearts. Continue to allow them to experience Your wonderments that You set forth for all of us each day. In Yeshua’s name. Amen.
Thank You
Thank you for the brightness you bring to my night that I take into my day. I thank our Lord for you entering into my life as many others also do. And I thank you too.
Listening
Father Your voice always comes at the time we need You most, all we have to do is listen.
My heart is filled with joy for the love You bring me and the world.
I am listening to Your song oh Lord, its sweet beauty has found me.
My tears comfort me. Thank you, Father. Amen
Old Habits
Father, every day I say I want You, and I look for You.
If I don’t find You, I ask, where are You, my God?
Why do I look for what I know I have?
Old habits die strong.
Why do I make acceptance so hard?
When it is the easiest thing I could ever do.
I surrender to You Yeshua.
No More Good
I'm feeling Spirit different today. It's not good morning, but Best Morning. It's not, have a good day, rather have the Best Day. The Lord Our God provides us with His best each day, henceforth I will acknowledge the love Yeshua offers and gives to encompass His fullest for us. To my new and old friends who will see these words, Best Morning; Best Afternoon; Best Day; Best Evening; Best Night, to each of you.
With Love. In Yeshua's name. Amen
Your Will
Adonai, watch over my friends and use each of them in Your own way, each equipped to do Your will as it pleases You. To those who will see this short message. Best night, best day, from me to you.
Victimhood
The time seems dark, but You are the light that will see us through Adonai Elohim.
There is much spiritual confusion by those who know not the works of the enemy.
Help them Father to break the mental chains that bind them to the false security of victimhood.
In Yeshua's name Amen
As a Man
Can I as a Man find tenderness in my heart?
You have made that part of my heart Adonai.
Can I as a Man find the courage to stand up to overwhelming odds,
to protect me, my family, and the innocent.
You have made that part of my being Adonai.
Can I as a Man display the responsibility to provide,
for my family righteously.
You have bestowed that ability within me Adonai.
There isn’t anything I can’t do as a Man with You by my side Adonai.
A Man
I am a Man Adonai, You made me as such.
I kneel only for You Father, not ideals, or movements.
I am a Man Adonai, created in the image of You.
To protect, provide, and seed.
To walk in honor, integrity, and love.
So all may witness Your truth in me.
Next Chapter
When you’re dying and alone
What do you do with so much left to do?
Your dreams are strong and oh so near.
Each day grows closer to the last in the book.
Guide me to write the next chapter Adonai.
Eyes and Ears
Have I found You…
With eyes that are closed and I can not see?
I know You called…
But my ears heard songs that were not Yours.
What am I looking for that I'm not seeing and hearing right in front of me?
Open my eyes oh Adonai…
Unblock my ears to the beauty of Your love.
You
When the night is still You are next to me.
When the waters are rough You calm my storm.
When I am falling You catch me and lift me up again.
When I am lost You guide me home.
In silence, I hear Your whisper entering my heart.
In darkness, I find comfort in Your light, Yeshua.
Heart Soul
Oh Adonai, let my prayers sing of poetry that floats deep and forever in the heart soul.
Never resting but always waiting to guide the One,
Who opens the door ever deeper into love, Your love, Adonai.
Time
Where does the time go Adonai?
Only yesterday I was the spring.
Today I am the winter.
The door is open, the cold breeze blows in.
I am not ready to leave, but I am prepared.
You've shown me the path toward love Adonai...
Thank You. In Yeshua's name. Amen.
Heart Hears
Every time I call You answer, when…
You speak my heart hears…
Thank You, Adonai for wiping my tears…
And living in Your love…
In Yeshua’s name. Amen…
Words
Father God, each day I ask You to guide and direct me…
On how best to allow Your voice to flow through me…
Father, I want to get better at praying in Your name…
You gave us Your Son who lives in my heart…
Help me to share my love through Your guided words…
In Yeshua's name. Amen.
Frozen Winds 1
Father God, the frozen winds of winter blow hard this night as
I sit in the warmth that’s generated from the love of Yeshua who
lives in my heart. Thank you Father for the arrival of Him who
continues to change the world daily as we know it.
Frozen Winds 2
Father God, the frozen winds of winter rattle the windows non-stop this night.
But my soul feels the warmth of Your Son who lives in my heart.
Thank You Father for the arrival of Him who continues to bathe us with the loving heat of grace and salvation.
Open Heart
Who have You brought into my life today Father?
What richness and beauty have You sent my way for me to discover?
I only have to look to find meaning.
Far too often I close my eyes and disregard.
And yet each day You present me with those who could change my life…
If only I open my heart.
Entered My Heart
When You entered my heart Yeshua, I knew I would never be the same.
I never knew I could love so big, as my love for You.
Sometimes I think everyone who looks upon me,
Can see my love and I want them to have it.
I am overwhelmed by Your love Yeshua.
How can You love me so fully?
Me who has nothing, yet You see all the treasures of the world in me.
More than I can ever see.
Open the eyes of my heart, oh Lord.
Let my ears see what I have not and my fingers taste deeply Your love.
Friends
Who are my real friends Father? Where are they?
Are they the ones who give to me because it feeds them?
Or are they the ones whose day I brighten just being me?
I need more real in my life.
You, You Know, Friend…
Beauty
Where does beauty come from?
How did You make it so Father, that I can experience…
Beauty and love as one…
My heart laughs as it sings notes that it doesn’t know…
But remembers, from long ago…
And I cry. Of Joy…
Foolish
Oh my God, You lead me to overcome all that I endure.
You’ve always done the hard part for me.
And even then I find times to complain over the lite work You leave me.
Oh, how foolish am I?
I so love all You do for me, Father.